First of all, I over-ate breakfast didn’t I… You’d think I would have learned my lesson after yesterday haha… Interestingly, I wasn’t that hungry throughout the rest of the day. I also got back to doing 40min of Core Rhythms again! Very proud of myself! Hopefully my weight’s somewhat back to normal tomorrow!
Can I cheat and do my measurements tomorrow? Please? Pretty please? With cherry on top? haha. I have no idea why, but I had a major set back yesterday… Ugh I’m SO upset with myself. Yesterday’s food journal and my weight today says it all. I mean, who the hell eats 4 donuts in one sitting?! Me. Stressed out me. *sigh* I can’t tell you how upset I am with myself… I guess I just have to make up for it today…
Okay, major setback… I know…..
I totally forgot to post my food journal last night… I had a pile of work and couldn’t do any exercise… again. Aaaargh!!
Overslept. Didn’t finish my report due today. Gotta run. ASDLFjalsdkfas;ldkflas!
A bento is a Japanese boxed meal. There are many different types but this one in particular was called the Balanced Bento. It included rice with furikake (seasoned dried seaweed and fish) on top, eggplant and bacon cooked in tomato sauce, sweet beans, grilled chicken, a meat ball, and cooked pumpkin, carrot, cabbage, lotus root, and seaweed. It seems like a lot of food to pack into a box after writing it all out. I wasn’t expecting much but it was pretty yummy! And very filling too…
And about the “15g of honey” for dinner… I just wanted something sugary and all I had was honey. Don’t judge haha.
I’m feeling pretty tired, plus I have to stay up late to write a report for my U.S. Politics class (fun..) so I skipped on the exercise tonight. I kind of regret it, but I have to set my priorities right? Keep your fingers crossed that I won’t pass out before finishing my report!!
Oh my, how did I lose over a kilo in one day? By not going out at night I guess haha. Dealing with the hunger was a bit tough last night, but seeing a decrease through numbers gave me a boost of motivation so I feel like I can keep this up! Now all I need is motivation to study and do some school work haha. I have about a week left of being an undergrad, and I have a pile of work left to do. I really don’t know how I’m ever going to finish all of it. And I don’t know if it’s the weather but I’m constantly sleepy throughout the day. I got my 7 hours of sleep last night, and the night before that I got more but I’m still really sleepy. I know in my head that I have to work and study, but my concentration doesn’t last because I’m SO sleepy… I usually hate my bed, but it feels so comfortable right now haha. I don’t want to get out of it!! I usually snack on junk food when I need to stay awake to do school work, and it works, but it really does become a habit and shows on the scale… and I munch on sweets and carbs, like pastries and bread and chocolate. I really do have a weakness for those.
I just turned on the TV, and the first thing I see? Yummy looking, fresh-out-of-the-oven bread. Shoot me…
It just turned 12am, and I’m starving! I’m craving curry and rice and french fries and egg rolls and pasta and lasagna and every other thing that shouldn’t be eaten during a diet haha. Aaaaaaargh!! Maybe I’ll have one of those unhealthy things for lunch tomorrow if I’m still craving it… I’m trying not to think about it right now, and I’m drinking club soda hoping it’ll fill up my stomach. By the way, I just made the mistake of browsing through a recipe website. My stomach’s now making lots of noise and my mouth is filled with saliva haha. I usually crave sweets when I’m hungry but right now, all I want is salty and greasy food. I’m glad I don’t live next to McDonalds. I know for sure that I wouldn’t hesitate to run over and get myself a cheese burger with fries and nuggets. I know my will’s not strong enough for me to stay inside my apartment lol.
Okay, just writing about this is making me even hungrier so I’m going to get off and study.
I’m kind of surprised and relieved I didn’t up my weight too much considering all the crap I ate and drank last night! I felt so full and guilty that I walked home (20min) from the restaurant. I figured any little calorie I would burn from walking would be better than nothing. And I didn’t realize how bloated my body was until I took my clothes off! My legs were so tired, kind of like that pain you feel after a long day of shopping at the mall haha. Well, since I’m being a good girl and staying home tonight, hopefully I’ll weigh a little less tomorrow. I mean, it’s my own fault really that my weight’s going up. Who starts a diet and goes out two nights in a row? haha. Me, obviously…
Alright, off to work on my senior thesis!
I ate SO much today. No doubt that I upped my weight haha. Decided to take the day off tomorrow and not go out at night. The plan was to actually go watch my hot friend’s live. He’s hot, divorced, has a kid, 10 years older than me, and has a really sexy voice. And we were kind of together for a while there, but recently he’s been really distant. And I hate that I feel kind of manipulated… like he’s taking control of our “relationship”. So I think I’m just going to make up an excuse and not go tomorrow haha. Stay home and focus on my work. My senior thesis is due next week and I’m in deep shit lol… I really don’t know how I’m going to finish it.
I think I’m just going to take a shower, stretch and massage my body, and go to sleep tonight. I’ll have to wake up early tomorrow and exercise in the morning to make up for tonight… ugh…
